Sometimes...

O' how I wish that life could be simpler. While I know complexity is beautiful and intriguing, it is also frustrating and tiring. Currently I am living pretty close to the high life; staying with my grandparents for free and eating pretty damn good everyday with the freedom to go and come as I please and no pressure to move out any time soon. Why would any sane person give this up you ask. Well I am sure many of you can atest to the fact that there are no parallels to living on your own. After four years of doing this, its hard to revert to old ways. So as a result of this and some insiting on my part, to my cousin, we are looking for apartments within the city.

For the most part this is an decent situation for me. The only problem is my current financial situation does not allow for me to move in as expditely as she would like. The past few weeks I have been going along for the ride and merely trying to enjoy without worrying about the things I knew were on the horizon. I knew I wouldnt be able to move in before mid-March or April first. I knew that two bathrooms would be much better than one. I knew that I would have bills coming up. Now I feel like I need to insist to my cousin that we wait till later in the year to look for apts or that she will have to look on her own. (Many of you are prolly wondering why this is a problem. Looking later is a problem for her because she believes the longer we wait the more people we are going to have to compete with for places and the more expensive they will be as a result.) Last night I had a conversation with a friend whom essentially told me to grow some balls and tell her that you have to wait. It really is that simple. DAMN! How this situation will settle itself I am not sure, but settle in will in the very near future.

In other news, I have started temping at this place in VA. I make decent pay but the travel to and from work sucks. I have been catching the metro cause it affords me the time to read my book and listen to music without traffic worries, but its expensive and next week I am going to drive to see if it is more cost and time efficient i.e. more desireable. The job, which I hated at first has turned into one that I can tolerate do to its newly acquired simplicty and massive amounts of downtime that allow me to do things such as type this massive note, check my mail every 5 mins, look for dogs I cant have and look at furniture for an apt I cant afford. Jealous arent you. HA!

In other positive news, I spoke wiht my supervisor today for my full time job which I havent started cause I have not received clearance. Told him about the apt hunt and that he might be contacted, told him I was excited to be starting soon, which amazingly wasnt a lie (read: I will make better money and have benifits). He said that he would check on the status of things and make sure the people were doing their job and not stalling.

Tonight, I might be goin to hang with a friend for a few hours. Dont you hate it when their is miscommunication between people and it creates an akwardness that later needs to be explained.

Sorry this thing was so damn long but thats what happens when you only write once a month and your a tad bit on the dramatic side.

P.S. I wish I could stay young forever, I have so much fun being silly. Practicin my Spanish much more now that in the past, still need to figure out when imma run this marathon so I can train for it.