Why?

Yes I am aware that this is more in one day than the last two months...but certain events of this evening require some grief counseling.

Why is it that I make the same mistakes over and over again. I make a decision that I paid for and promised myself I would never put myself in that situation again. Now here it is almost a year later and I make the same dumb decision which is causing me the same damn grief. I know prayer afterwards wont solve the problem, but I am hoping it will bring me some solice. Breaking bad habits is hard, but I vow tonight that I will work fight myself to make better decisions and work towards living a better life.

Good night all